Sleep Eludes Me

Listening to every sound around me…my husband snoring, the ticking clock, the melting snow dripping from the roof. My mind is everywhere but not where I want it to be. Unwinding after a long pain filled day is difficult but trying to unwind knowing the love of your life is in constant pain is a whole other beast. 

We never want to see the people we love in pain. 

We pray and beseech God to take away their pain and heal them. But the pain continues, the illness is still there. God does heal and He’s healed us in the past. I have no doubt He will heal yet again…It’s this patience thing I have a problem with. Waiting has always been difficult for me. 

Waiting in lines. 

Waiting in traffic.

Waiting in the doctor’s office. 

Waiting on God. 

Waiting and knowing that one day the healing will come all the while doing what we need to do. 

Our part in the healing process. Yes, praying. Yes, getting anointed. Yes, fasting. Yes, focusing on the joys. Yes, remembering all the miraculous healing God has done for us. Yes, continuing on with life. Yes, putting all our faith and belief in God to do what’s best for us. 

Acting on what we know. 

Faith and patience go hand-in-hand. You can’t have one without the other. 

But in the wee hours of the morning when the house is quiet, you’ll find me praying for God’s intervention in helping my husband be whole again!